Monday, November 24, 2008

MONDAY NOV 24, 2008

HI EVERYONE,

I DONT KNOW HOW TO SAY THIS BUT AT THIS POINT THE CANCER IS BACK AND THERE IS NOT ALOT THAT CAN BE DONE. I WOULD RATHER QUALITY THEN QUANITY AT THIS TIME. I HAD A BONE MARROW THIS AFTERNOON THAT WILL TELL IF ALL THE WHITE CELLS ARE CANCER BUT WE KNOW IT IT FOR SURE BACK AND GROWING FAST. TOMORROW WE WILL HAVE OUR "FINAL DECISION" TALK AND MAY BE HEADED HOME. I AM TRYING TO GET OUT OF THE HOSPITAL TONITE BUT I AM ALSO HAVING A SPINAL TAP BEFORE I LEAVE.

WILL KNOW MORE TOMORROW. LOVE YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH BRENDA AND FAMILY
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38 comments:

  1. amy rooseNovember 24, 2008 at 4:30 PM

    Hi Hon, I guess we are all just in shock and there are no words to express how we feel. Just know that you are probably the most loved person in the world and still have family and friends praying for you. We love you Brenda. Love Amy and Gus

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  2. KAkersNovember 24, 2008 at 4:34 PM

    Dear Brenda, Love you so much. We are with you all the way, we will see what another day brings and another after that. Enjoy the family tonight and we'll be a talkin' to you later. Love you

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  3. CharleneNovember 24, 2008 at 5:48 PM

    Brenda,
    I for one am not giving up hope, I still think there is "something" out there that will help you. Your family has been super wonderful and maybe if you get to come home, your friends and family here can also be super wonderful and all your white cells will grow stonger and overpower that nasty cancer. If strength could cure cancer, you would be healthy as a horse. Your stength and positive attitude has been an inspiration to all of us. After all you have gone through, I would feel like an ass complaining about a migrane. Our prayers are still being said for you and God will do what he thinks is best. We don't always agree with him but he always has the last say. Stay strong and we will talk soon.
    Love ya, Charlene

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  4. tateandstaciNovember 24, 2008 at 6:48 PM

    Hey there- We love you and will keep praying for you. Hope to see you soon. Love ya--Staci and Tate

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  5. Rhonda & BobNovember 24, 2008 at 7:24 PM

    Brenda,
    Thinking of you non-stop, and praying hard for you. I hope you know how much you mean to me and everyone. You are one tough cookie. I love you so very very much.
    Love you, Rhonda

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  6. AprilNovember 24, 2008 at 8:23 PM

    Hey there girlfriend,
    Just wanted you to know we love you and are still praying for you extra hard. You hang in there- I will talk to you soon!

    Love,
    April & Clan

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  7. WY GrammaNovember 24, 2008 at 8:57 PM

    Oh, Brenda. . . I am so sorry to hear the news. I will not stop praying, nor will I stop believing that we will see you strong and healthy soon. Love you,
    Joyce

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  8. Jerry KromerNovember 24, 2008 at 9:27 PM

    Brenda - You have never met me, but I have followed your story for a while. I may have even seen you in my endless days in the hospital. My wife fought this same disease for a long, long time. There were many ups and downs and though eventually she lost her battle she never gave in. We spent over 14 months straight in PSL between Bone Marrow North, South, 3B and Spaulding rehab. There are no words that provide any kind of solace at this point. The only thing I can offer is just keep up the fight. Fight for whatever is important to you - whether it be "quality" or "quantity". Go for it. Just never leave anything on the table.

    My wife's name was Patty Kromer. If you read this before you leave the hospital ask any of the nurses about her and they will tell you about her - she left her mark there in PSL!

    Our best wishes to you!
    Jerry Kromer
    http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/PattyKromer

    http://adadandhisboy.blogpot.com

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  9. Tschetter'sNovember 24, 2008 at 10:38 PM

    Hey lady, know that we will continue to pray and know that we are behind you. You have been so strong thru this whole fight and an inspiration to all of us. Know that God is with you now more than ever.
    LOVE YOU ALWAYS
    Scott and Deb

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  10. PaulNovember 24, 2008 at 10:40 PM

    God bless you Brenda, you are in our prayers. Love the Casey's

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  11. VickieNovember 25, 2008 at 5:08 AM

    Hey Brenda,
    Just wanted you to know that I am here for you where ever this road is going. I continue to pray and still believe in miracles. You are truley an inspiration to us all.
    Love ya,
    Vickie

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  12. LOUISENovember 25, 2008 at 8:05 AM

    WE LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. YOU ARE IN OUR PRAYERS EVERY HOUR OF THE DAY.

    LOUISE

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  13. jaltafferNovember 25, 2008 at 9:04 AM

    Hey Brenda, So sorry to hear of the latest news. I know everyone will support whichever decision you make. We all love you so much and would do anything for you that we could. Hang in there and know that you are in all our thoughts and prayers. Love, Julie

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  14. ChandraNovember 25, 2008 at 9:07 AM

    Hey Girl,

    "Jesus...said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26

    I totally believe this and will be praying so hard for you, you are sooooo strong!!!
    Love you!
    Chandra

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  15. ConnieNovember 25, 2008 at 9:20 AM

    Hi Brenda,
    We love you very much and will be praying for a miracle! You are such a strong person! Be strong and take care and I will talk to you soon!
    Love,
    Connie

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  16. PatNovember 25, 2008 at 11:41 AM

    Brenda,
    I know it is better to know than wonder, it makes the choices clearer, not easier. We all want you home to surround you with love and make every day the best ever.
    See you soon!!! There is not a day goes by I don't look at that wonderful picture on your site and think of you.
    TTFN, Pat G.

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  17. LizNovember 25, 2008 at 12:02 PM

    We all love you so much and are praying for you. Sending HUGS from HOME~
    Liz~

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  18. rhondaNovember 25, 2008 at 2:43 PM

    Hi Brenda,
    I'm sorry to hear the news, it's not what we were all hoping for. Please know that you are so loved! I have never met you, but feel so connected. You're an inspiration to so many. I believe God has a purpose for all of us and that yours must be to show all of us the true meaning of life.

    Thank you!!!
    Hugs,
    Rhonda

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  19. TrudyNovember 25, 2008 at 2:46 PM

    Brenda, All I can say is you are my "Wonder Woman" and I love you and I am still praying for you. I am behind you one hundred percent for whatever road you choose next. Love and Prayers, Trudy

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  20. bcoyNovember 25, 2008 at 2:56 PM

    Brenda
    There is a warm fire waiting for you back here and we are all looking forward to seeing you. We know your family is an enormous support and we hope you know your friends are as well. I hope you got a MC GOod to do the biopsy. Mc Dreamy is nice but when it come to pain go for the expert. Talk at you later. I Love you. barb

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  21. BarbNovember 25, 2008 at 6:27 PM

    Wow - This is not the post I expected to see today. Shock! You are the strongest person I know and we are all here waiting to help lift you up and do whatever we can. Love you lots.
    Barb C.

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  22. UnknownNovember 25, 2008 at 9:10 PM

    Brenda, The first thing that strikes me is how in the middle of all you are going through, you still worried about how to give all of us your latest news. You have been so strong and positive, so much so that you have even touched strangers' lives. Please know our thoughts are constantly with you. Love you, CA Barb

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  23. Gay HooperNovember 25, 2008 at 9:35 PM

    Hey Bren,
    Just wanted to let you know that we are all here for YOU..
    You are in our hearts and minds constantly. Try to stay strong and keep your chin up. Miracles do happen. Never give up. We Love you. Take Care. Talk to you soon.
    Gay

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  24. leslieNovember 26, 2008 at 4:59 AM

    Brenda, Thinking of you and sending lots of prayers out.Stay strong and keep your faith.Miracles happen and you and your family deserve one.Lots of Love, Leslie.

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  25. SheilaNovember 26, 2008 at 6:45 AM

    Brenda,
    Life is too short to live with regrets. Whatever decision you make, run with it and do not look back. Look forward and make every second count. These words rein true for all of us. We never know what tomorrow will bring. You have shown such strength and courage through these times of trial. Keep fighting and know that we will all fight with you!! Stay strong and Believe!
    With love and prayers, Sheila Kilts

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  26. jsNovember 26, 2008 at 8:45 AM

    Brenda,

    We have never met, but I have followed your story. Thank you for being such a strong and courageous person! I believe God has a plan for all of us, and its comforting to know that he is on our side, and will take care of us. Through God, all things are possible! You have been in my prayers and will continue to be.

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  27. BrendaNovember 26, 2008 at 11:36 AM

    Bren,

    Tomorrow we all gather to give thanks, on days like this it is hard to be thankful. I want you to know that I will be giving thanks that I have called you my friend for the last 31 years. Thank you for that opportunity..

    Make whatever decision you need to make, but know you have friends who love and are praying for you near and far away.


    Love you babe, Maynard. :)

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  28. Grandma ShariNovember 26, 2008 at 12:03 PM

    I am so sorry Brenda, I can't imagine what you have gone through and what you and your family are going through. I wish there was a magic button that we could push to take this all away and make life as it was before. My heart breaks for you all and I will keep praying for a miracle. You are in our thoughts and prayers and most of all in our hearts. You are truly a beautiful person inside and out.

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  29. Heather MillerNovember 26, 2008 at 12:55 PM

    Brenda, I just wanted to let you know what an inspiration you are to all of us! You are such a strong and amazing person. You are in our thoughts and prayers and will continue to be. God bless you and your loving family!

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  31. JoanneNovember 26, 2008 at 2:34 PM

    Brenda,
    I was so sorry to hear your news yesterday but you have been so strong throughout all of this. I just hope that your final talk gave you a ray of sunshine. You have the love and support of family and friends. Know that we will continue to keep you in our prayers and you will always be in our thoughts. I do hope you get to go home as then you would be surrounded by all your loved ones.
    Love you, Joanne and family

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  32. DeniseNovember 26, 2008 at 3:56 PM

    Dear Brenda,

    You are in my prayers each and every day. Your family, too. You are a testimony of a strong, beautiful woman and you are truly amazing in your grace and strength. I am shocked and sorry to hear your news. I will continue to lift you up, praying for strength for you and wisdom for the doctors. Love, Denise

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  33. Jakob and BradyNovember 26, 2008 at 9:19 PM

    We are all so looking forward to Thanksgiving with you. We love you and you never cease to amaze us with your strenght and courage. We are praying every step of the way. Love you Sissy!

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  34. Donna and KidsNovember 26, 2008 at 10:25 PM

    Hi Brenda, We just wanted you to know that there's not a day that goes by when we don't think about you and pray for you. We all just wish we could do more to help you, but it is so awsome to see you all united and fighting as a family, your so lucky in that way.It is truely life changing to witness such courage. We love you Brenda

    Donna, Haley, Dominic, Kelsey D., and Family

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  35. jaw515November 27, 2008 at 12:57 AM

    I have been so tied up with my own life I haven't checked in on you in awhile... I love you and miss you. I hope you know and feel how special you are to all of us. Be joyful today you are lifted up in prayers and love!! Love you with my all, Julie and family

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  36. PennyNovember 27, 2008 at 2:53 PM

    Dear Brenda and family,

    I praise God for you dear Brenda. You are so courageous and always remember, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called acccording to his purpose." Romans 8:28. You are in our prayers. We love you, Jim and Penny

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  37. JoanneNovember 27, 2008 at 4:56 PM

    Howdy Brenda, Just got your news while at Joanne's today for Thanksgiving. Know that we think of you often, and will continue to keep you and your family in our prayers. Lots of love, Steve, Renee and crew

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  38. kelsey_deeNovember 27, 2008 at 6:30 PM

    Hey Sissy i mss you so much and i hope your thanksgiving is going great,,, you have been in my thoughts all day..... i got my accpetance letter from uw today that said i made it in and so i think that is where i am gonig to college... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOU ARE SUCH A STRONG PERSON ... God bless. Love YOU

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