Sat. April18

Hello to everyone that still checks in and to all of you that do THANK YOU!!!!!! Strange as it sounds it gives me a good and warm feeling knowing others still take that minute to think about her .

Today marks the 1 [one] year that we found out she had a really big battle to fight and she and Brian headed to Denver,so they would be there to check into the hospital by 7:a.m on Sat. Up until now she has been all business and matter of fact, making all the arrangments for everyone.. I picture her riding that elevator up to 3rd. floor not having a clue as to what all this day would involve, feeling very nervous and yes scared... They make their way to the nurses station introduce theirselves and it all gets the best of her and she breaks down ,this is were her relatonship with ALICE begins , ALICE is charge nurse,and she comes around and raps her arms around Sissy and holds her, comforting her making sure she knew they were going to take the very best of care of her and she along with many other did just that.. Kayla and I headed down Sat afternoon, by the time we got there she had been poked, proded,cut,sewed and you name it,, but when she saw us,there was that big ole smile,and dancing blue eyes, yes we knew she was happy to see us.... In the perfect world this would have played out differently but it didn't.

Once again I want to thank everyone for everything that was so selflessly given to Brenda over the course of her illness..

I don't know if the black hole in my heart will ever heal from losing her!!! But I know I am proud,blessed, thankful and gratful to have been her mom ....