Friends and Family:
I so miss checking the blog first thing everyday , looking forward to hearing from those who were so faithful to send a little bit if home to Colo. This BLOG was truly a God send besides looking forward to the messages from home it was something for her to do and give her the mind set of the news to send home everyday. It was very important to her as when she couldn't do it, she was making sure I was giving it the ole college try to get it done.
I have heard from Debbie and Kathy (2 of the Pink Tiger)They both got to go home for Xmas. Kathy ended up having to have a back surgery and is now trying to rebuild her strength. She is responding well to her donor and no bad cells showed up since her last treatment. Debbie is 100% her donor and cancer free although she had been back in the hospital with a bad infection..I told her, her kids had just won the lottery as they get to have a mommy again and hopefully will get to watch them grow old. It has been a long haul for them as she has been so sick since last June....For them I am so thankful and grateful and excited for them to get to go on and have somewhat normal life. Believe me they all deserve it for I really don't think anyone really knows what they all have been through. I wish I could understand WHY Sissy couldn't have been one as well to overcome it all, she took it all like the little soldier she was and try ed so hard to stay positive and strong. I wish I would have accepted this could happen and ask her things knowing she didn't offer it as she needed to protect me. I wish I would have just crawled in bed with her and just held her one last time. Missing her is totally off the charts this is the longest I've ever not seen her since the day she was born. SORRY...this not were I meant to go.
I do have some very unexpected but happy news Kirk and Leigh much to their SURPRISE are going to get us a new baby in Aug. It will be great and they can do it, as they are wonderful parents!!!! We are kind of in favor of blue but another little girl will be just what we ordered if we can be blessed with a healthy Mommy and Baby!!!!
Was kind of hoping Brian and Kayla would follow suit but no such luck so far.
Coy's wife Hannah and little Lu key Bear came and spent a week with me last week, loved having them kinda brightened up life and home . This ole house just doesn't seem to function right with only me rattling around.
With alot of wonderful help we got Sissy moved out of her apartment and her Uncle Howard allowed us to move her things into his house at the ranch, where we will just make a home there with her things and I can be there with mom on my off months. Jeff came home to help along with Brian and Kayla, Marlys, Pat,Donna, Eva and Elvin and Mike. What would we do without friends and family?????
Hopefully everyone out there will forgive me for taking so long getting thank-you out. My daughter-in-laws have tryed very hard when they are here BUT every time I try I am unsuccessful as it just kicks me in the gut,I will get it together and I pray everyone knows how much they are loved and appreciated.
Miss hearing from everyone, Hope this finds you all doing well. Keep us posted.
Love to all Chick and Crew
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Chicken,
I check the blog almost every day to see if there is a message! I think of you often and know how hard it must be without Brenda. Nobody will ever know why God decided to take her but just know she is in a happy place. She fought so hard and was so strong I never dreamed she wouldn't beat it.
I am glad you have all her things at the ranch. That must make her so very happy and she knows as she is watching over you.
Glad to hear you will be a Grandma again in August. Aren't grandkids just the greatest?
Take care of yourself and some weekend I will take a trip to Sundance to see you.
Love, Joanne
Hi Momma Chicken, it is so great to see you blogged!!!! It is so hard to know why Brenda is gone, and it hurts as the reality keeps setting in, it does seem like so long since we've seen her and heard her voice. Last night we crawled in bed and Coy said "I miss my Sissy," it breaks me heart to hear him say it, but I know we all miss her so much, but somehow we will just keep going, and hold tight to each other. That's how we make it I guess.
We had a wonderful time with you. I treasure the time we had to talk and laugh and enjoy each other. You're an awesome woman and I'm thankful we could be with you and hope to do it again soon!!! We love you!
Hannah
so glad to see you blogged again. You will have to keep us up on the happenings with the new baby and the other wonderful grandchildren.
I hope you were able to get out and enjoy a little of the beautiful sunshine today.
always thinking of you
Vickie
Aunt Chicken,
I can't say to you that I know exactly how you feel, but I can say that I know pretty close. My pain is different, and I can't imagine waking up every morning and missing something, my something was only a part of me for a short while. I know that I wish everyday that I would have just asked to hold my baby while he was alive, but instead I have a memory of a cold, perfect angel. I know that you will drive yourself crazy with what if, why's, and would'a should'a's. I wonder everyday if I would have done this, or noticed that, or just pushed my doctor if our little man would have still been here, but it only drives me deeper into depression. Instead, I watch the videos, and I remember how happy that time he was with us, and try to find peace in knowing that there is a life in the heavens greater than we can imagine. In only a blink of their eyes will we be there once again to hold them tightly.
I know that the 5th of the month is just as hard for you as it is for me. I think about you all the time, and I know how it feels to be "forgotten" about, as everyone goes back to their lives, and your life has ceased. I know what an empty feeling you have in your soul, and how you lie awake at night asking the Lord "why"?
Don't feel bad about your thank you notes, I have yet to send mine out, and I have 2 months on you. I just ordered Ryder's headstone, and the only reason I did it was because they took his marker away. Thank you notes are the finality of it all, and I keep telling myself that people will be pleasantly surprised when they come!
I love you Aunt Chicken, you have always been such an amazing woman! I pray for you daily!
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